:) *fact* (:

i am SO glad that i am a true and loyal friend. i don't do this fake crap where i am your friend when it's convenient for me and my hubby or other friends. i just sit back and giggle (really hard) when people show their true colors.    That is all :)

slacker!!

Ugh, I hate to admit it but I didnt work out at all over the weekend. BUT I HAVE A GREAT REASON. It's hard to even breathe. Pretty sure I have a sinus infection, yay for me. I plan on getting right back on track tomorrow. Everything has moved from my head to my throat and chest. Ugh, it's not fun. The worst part is that my baby girl has a runny nose too :( Poor baby. Anywho, for those of you who randomly read this...just didnt want you to think i was slacking. I have a goal and i plan on hitting it.

Day 3: Shoulders & Arms, Ab ripper X

P90X is going to KILL me! lol. So I figured out that i don't have the proper equipment to do the whole Shoulder and Arm routine. I have a band but it looks like i either need to go get 2 different bands or I need to go get some little weights. The Ab Ripper X killed me! UGH!. Hey- I made it through the whole workout. My tummy is my trouble area so I'll suffer through it! HAHA. I WILL be feeling this later tonight and tomorrow! My whole body is sore now. Whew. I know Cardio is coming but I need to go ahead and get out and run. For one, I dont have anyone to run with. i HATE running alone! Yes I could go jog with my kiddos...but seriously?! I can't run with the hubby because I can't keep up with him. Lucky guy, he's still in shape. In fact, I think he looks better now than he did when we first met. Yeah he's gained some weight but it's been in all the right places. Even with all the extra muscle tone, he's lost about 10 lbs since we moved to Clarksville. So now, more than ever, he has that nice "V" shape from his shoulders to his waist. Ugh, he's so hot but he makes me sick. I dont wanna have to work so hard to get what he has naturally. LOL. Just kidding. I am willing to put in the work...some days. But so far I haven't skipped a day...which is AMAZING. We've bought all sorts of things for me to work out with. I've got the "bender ball", i have ankle weights and i have the Wii fitness stuff. I use them all for a little while and then tucker out and give up. NOT THIS TIME. It might be hard to stick with since the holidays are coming up, but i am going to try my best. I am hoping I can talk my hubby into buying me the Zumba workout for the Wii so i can do that one day and P90X the next. That way I'm not doing the same type of workout every day! He knows I get bored easily but we made a promise. If I can stick with P90X for a while (probably a week or two) I can buy the Zumba stuff. I mean it's $40 and neither of us wants to buy it so it can just sit in the case. hee hee...i am guilty as charged. Today was an easier day for me. Mostly because i honestly LOVE ab workouts. lol. and probably because the band i have couldnt be used for all of the different things. Oh well. Maybe I'll invest in some little weights. Probably no more than 10 lb weight. Hey - as an athlete i know that it's not about how much weight you can lift, it's the repetition using the same weight. Wish me luck! Hopefully I can pick up those weights tomorrow :)

Day 2: Plyometrics

OMG! The plyometrics workout is so freakin hard! I did this workout yesterday morning and let me tell you, i can feel it today! Whew. It is so hard. I hope i can stick with it! My arm, legs, butt...everything is SORE. Ugh, my abs are so sore that i feel like i could puke. Oddly enough I find that to be a great feeling. That means I am working hard and doing what i need to be doing. LOL. Only an athlete would say something like that :) Today's workout looks to be Shoulders & Arms PLUS AB Ripper X. I am not looking forward to it but plan on making it through the whole thing! Thanks for following me!

Day 1

Ok so obviously I am in worse shape than I thought. I only made it through HALF of the first work out video. SERIOUSLY?! Ugh. But in my defense, I DO have a BAD back and that's what we were working out yesterday :( Every single pushup i did felt like a knife going into my lower back. It's not a fun feeling. I may not have made it through the entire video but i am NOT stopping. I will continue on today with the next cd on the program. Thanks to my wonderful sister in law for sending me the workout sheets so I know what order to do things in. Ugh, this is going to kick my butt! BUT I HAVE TO DO IT! I am SORE this morning so at least i know that means i was really trying last night. I WILL get there. I am DETERMINED to!

Making a change :)

In light of my recent feelings about my body, I have decided to make a change. NO NO, i am NOT going to diet. lol. I don't NEED to diet. My dad has p90x and is going to let me borrow it. Now, i think i would like the "Insanity" work outs better but the p90x is FREE so that's what i am doing :) 

I think I'm going to try to blog about my journey. Now I am not obese and it's not going to be some huge deal if and when i lose weight and better my life. It's kind of like seeing these tv shows like Jon and Kate plus 8 or 19 kids and counting. Yes, it is rare and interesting but where are the shows about NORMAL, AVERAGE families? Well this is the journey of THIS normal, mommy of 3 who used to be an athlete and in amazing shape and just wants her body back. Trust me, it's not like I think i'm going to turn into some hott momma. I just want to look in the mirror and LOVE ME. I am hoping to get started tomorrow afternoon OR Wednesday morning.

I haven't decided if i want to work out before bed or early in the morning. If I work out at night, the kids will be in bed already and my hubby can work out with me. Then again, if i get up EARLY in the morning I can work out while the kids are sleeping and my hubby can work out with me...the downside to that is that it'd have to be at like 4:30-5 in the morning. His alarm goes off at 5:30 and if we worked out, we'd both have to shower. Him because he needed to go to work and me because it's never a good idea to have 3 kids roaming around while trying to shower:) Either way, it's GOING to happen. I am happy to get started...

WHENEVER i start, i will weigh myself and keep track of it that way. Yay:) IF i lose weight, i dont NEED to lose much. I'm already smaller than average but I'd like to be able to go and play with my kids outside without sucking eggs...LOL! Thanks for supporting me in my journey to get fit :)

Weight :(

I don't know what it is or why but i HATE looking in the mirror. I just don't know how to get out of this funk. I look at my children and i honestly think my boys are so handsome and so cute and my daughter is beautiful :) My husband is extremely attractive (to me, i dont care if you dont think so!). Then I see myself...and I just don't know what to think. It's SO freakin hard to ignore someone that is so close to you and they SHOULD have your best interests at heart WHEN EVER they say ANYTHING to you or about it. So it's hard to get poked in my belly and have someone blow their cheeks up at me like i'm huge. It's hard to hear someone tell you that there are roads around here (my house) that are safe to go running on. BUT HERE'S THE THING...I DON'T THINK I'M FAT!!! Anytime I have a weight issue, I talk to my hubby about it. He knows where I am coming from. He was an athlete growing up just like me so he knows SORT OF what it's like and where I'm coming from. I HAVE HAD THREE KIDS. After the first two, it barely looked like I had ever been pregnant. BUT WITH THE THIRD, MY ONLY GIRL...my hormones got all messed up. For some reason my hormones are completely different than they were "pre-Maggie". I get hot really easily, I'm uncomfortable in some clothing, my cycle is totally different (tmi but if you didnt want to know, you shouldnt be reading this). Everything about my body has changed. The only thing that changed for the better is obviously i have my daughter and (for my husbands sake, lol) my boobs are bigger. LOL. What guy doesn't like boobs?! But it's CRAZY. I shouldnt feel this way about myself. I eat pretty healthy. I mean, yeah i love a burger from McDonalds but i also love a good salad (drenched in ranch). The ONLY thing that i put in my body on a daily basis that's "bad" is coke. I am a coke addict. SERIOUSLY. If I dont have one by like 8 am, i get a headache and the longer i go without one, the worse i feel. Yes i understand that i could cut out the coke...BUT I DONT WANT TO. LOL. I have come to the realization that it's not really what i am eating..it's that i dont get out and stay active. Yes, i have 3 kids...they keep me pretty busy. But yes, there are days (many days) that i want to plant my butt on the couch and NOT MOVE unless my kiddos NEED something. ALL OF THAT IS TOTALLY BESIDES THE POINT....I AM NOT FAT. I looked up some info about my body type. I will go ahead and put this out there....BECAUSE I DONT CARE IF YOU KNOW. Here are some stats on me:
Age:25
Weight: 140 (today...and it's not the best time of month to weigh myself...if you know what i mean...LOL)
Height: 5'4"
My BMI is within NORMAL range and it said that my weight is at the 48th percentile. THAT MEANS IM SMALLER THAN AVERAGE (not by much but hey- i'll take what i can get) LOL

I am just so frustrated with myself and other people. Yes, i AM bigger now that I was 7 years ago. I've had 3 kids, i've moved 6 times...i've had a lot going on. With my daughter, the Tuesday before I had her (so 2 days before she was born) i got up to 160. My body did NOT react to all the extra estrogen flowing through my body. Ugh, like i said...being pregnant with her totally messed me up.. BUT I AM SO GLAD TO HAVE HER IN MY LIFE. I understand that having 3 healthy children is a blessing.  

Ugh, i am just ranting ON and ON and ON and ON....i'm just upset and rather than whine like a baby to my husband...i thought i'd whine to all of you..LOL. My hubby knows what song to let me listen to and it's really true about me. Skillet: Imperfections. I am constantly looking at my flaws, drowning in my imperfections. I will get better and do better. I just hate feeling the way i feel. 

On a positive note, Carson (will be 4 tomorrow) had a great birthday party today. i cried this morning looking at pictures from when he was 1. hee hee. i'm a mush ball :)

i do ME best

i LOVE when people bash me.

not only does it make me giggle...


it makes me stronger.

See, here's the thing about me...


i do ME...i don't try to be anyone else.

oh and for those of you who don't know who to talk about me to...i know the best option...


ME!




so don't bash me, my family, my kids, my husband OR MY SHOP. until you are rich, famous and taking so many orders that you need help filling them...keep my name out of your mouth. 


thanks :)

things are lookin up...

Things are going SO great! My kids are healthy and happy...for the most part, lol! Here's a little update on my 3 rugrats. Brayden Charles: he just turned 6 in August. His party was great. He is doing SO WELL in school. he loves going to school and he is SO smart. sometimes it honestly seems like he is older than 6. he loves being a big brother and was SO happy to hear that Maggie's test results were good. Carson Benjamin: He is a wild man. lol. He will be 4 next month and is SO smart. He can't start school for 2 years though. When Brayden enters 3rd grade Carson will be going to Kindergarten. He is trying to assert himself as a "big boy" and he hasn't been so happy that mommy has been putting the foot down. He is going to have to learn that just because he's smart and he's getting older...he's still a kid and mommy and daddy are the boss! lol. Maggie Shea: She is doing so well. We found out that she doesnt have to have any sort of surgery. Her test showed that her plates are NOT touching, even though more than one nurse said that's what it felt like! so her brain has the room required to grow. i am so happy about that news. we also found out that she's only in the 3rd percentile for her weight. in finding this out, we realized that her old doctor was an idiot and didnt know how in the heck to chart her growth! she's always been tiny and it looks like she always will be. Shes just about running. it's hilarious to watch her little tiny self get across the room so quickly. one of these days ill have to post a new video of her walking so im not called a liar again. (so stupid,lol).

My little business is shaping up so well. Since the beginning of June my life has been non stop. Weddings and moving and getting all of the medical stuff in order, it's just been one crazy ride. Finally we are settled and I can really focus on my business. I am so looking forward to getting out there and really advertising my business myself. No one needs to advertise anything for me. I am a big girl and this is my baby and i will do it myself. I think Ty has enjoyed me working on something that i really love. he's totally supportive and can give me his creative opinion when i ask for it. I am just happy that he isn't spending his time at work telling people about my business. Besides, he does physical labor all day long...he doesnt really have time to be chatting people up about bows and tutus. lol.

I've gained a little weight that I am not so happy about but hey- i know how to fix that...getting the motivation is the issue...LOL!

Loving it :)

My life is pretty awesome. My kids are with my parents for the night. Ty and I are going to go out for supper. Alabama is kicking Penn States butt! lol. My trip to town was a success. Tons of new ideas and I just can't be happier. People keep trying to make digs at me and tear me down but it's just not going to happen. I take pride in my life and everything I am creating and no one can take that from me.  I guess I'm just lying to myself though. I dont have real customers and no one wants to buy or wear my items. LOL. I just love having a creative outlet instead of having so much free time that all i can do is sit around and bash someone. I'm so happy with how things are going. This afternoon and tomorrow are going to be awesome!

Keep on keepin' on...

Well my Maggie Shea Creations business is growing nicely (slowly but i love it).  We have now begun to offer tutus. Soon enough I'll be offering jewelry and I can't wait. I love my tutus and bows and am very happy with the fans that I have. The best thing about my items, they aren't JUST LIKE everyone else's. I take pride in each item I create :)  I would love for each of you to stop by and check it out! I'm actually thinking about starting a blog up just for Maggie Shea Creations. That way my business and personal life don't keep crossing :)

Getting excited about TUTUs!!

I am so blessed. My Maggie Shea Creations business (which can be found on facebook) is doing well. I know, i know, the number of fans doesn't support my excitement but i am not purely interested in numbers. The items I make, i take my time and they don't look like everything that everyone else makes. My bows don't really look like the bows that other shops are selling. It's not that i think ones are better than others, I just like that mine are different. I am also excited about these tutus. They only take about an hour to make :) If i had more than one hour free at a time i'd be cranking them out (but hey - i work when my kids nap or are playing, but thats when there isnt cleaning to do) VERY excited to post my tutus. ALSO, i am SO happy about selling my items next weekend. Hopefully those ladies will like them. I have some awesome contacts and am so excited to get my name out there. Now, if only I could find the business cards that I made before we moved....

Not enough time in the day...

Oh how i wish i could make more hours in a day. Even then I dont think i would have enough time to get everything done that i want to accomplish. There is always laundry, cleaning, errands, kids, etc. My little business I am trying to start is suffering because of it. I just can't find the time to sit down and make time for these little creations. I have so many ideas in my head and no time to make them a reality. i WILL find the time...sometime. LOL. With what all is going on with my daughter, i just dont know that i can handle the pressure to make everyone else happy with bows and blankets and jewelry. I guess i just need to MAKE time. and just stick to it. Stay up and hour or two after I put the kids down. I just can't handle this going to bed at midnight and getting back up at 6 or 6:30. But i think i can handle staying up til 11. I have got to get organized about all of the things going on in my life. When it comes to the kids and my hubby, they HAVE whatever they need WHEN they need it. Goodness, today might end up being a long day. I can't put off being productive...IT MUST START NOW

Appointment time..

Got all call this morning from the doctor's nurse. Maggie goes next Friday, September 2nd for her scan of her skull. I don't really know what to hope for. The dr says she's pretty sure that her skull has already fused together and she may have been born with part of it already fused. So I am expecting those results. That he skull has fused together and that her brain doesn't have room to grow. So with that, I am expecting that she will need the surgery to give her brain room to grow. I am willing to do whatever needs to be done to protect my child and make her life better. 

Lots of things have been going through my mind and most of them are silly little things that I dont need to be worried about at all. I am grateful that there IS a surgery to fix the problem and that my daughter isn't fighting for her life. I don't think I'm strong enough to deal with that. Dana Rucker, now that momma is strong and little Maddie is in my prayers. It's just hard. I AM thankful that this is something that can be fixed BUT i am terrified that my baby will have to be operated on.

Basically, from what i've gathered and been told, is that they will remove a small part of her skull to give her brain room to grow. I am assuming she will have to wear some sort of helmet to protect her head. Eventually a metal plate will be placed over the hole. 

That brings up a WHOLE list of fears. Now there is the possibility that she could have not just one surgery but two. Ugh. And then...well i grew up an athlete and got SO excited when I found out that i was having a girl. I would LOVE for my boys to follow in their Daddy's footsteps and play baseball and football...whatever they want to do. I'll be happy as a clam if they want to play soccer too. BUT when I found out it was a girl, i was happy because i thought i could have a mini me. She could play soccer (or whatever she wants to play, seriously). But the fear that she wouldn't be able to be competitive physically. There are other things she can do. Piano, karate, any instrument. I just hate to think that she won't have the same opportunities that i had and that her brother will have. 




Anyway, silly concerns for now. Let's wait for next Friday's test results and we can go from there...


God Bless my baby girl. Please keep her safe and keep your hands on her.

Prayers for Maggie

Ugh. To update everyone let me first say that I went to my doctor in Jackson Tennessee about my concerns and was told that my daughter was "normal". I have a few choice words for that lady! Anywho, Today I took Maggie Shea in for her 9 month check up. 

When I arrived I was given a 10 month assessment to fill out. I marked "yes" for everything she should be doing as a 10 month old (at 9 months), PLUS she is walking. The doctor just could not believe she is so tiny and can walk.

Problem 1: Weight. I told the dr in Jackson that i felt like she should be gaining more than 1/2 pound or 1 pound a month. but lets start at the beginning...When she was born she was 7lbs 12oz. when we left the hospital she was 7lbs 7 oz. A week later she was 7 lbs 4 oz. Finally around 2 1/2 or 3 months she was finally back up to her birth weight. I asked the dr if she was growing normally (bc she just wasnt gaining like my boys did) and i was assured that she was doing just fine and she was in the 50th percentile for weight (and height). Well at her 6 month check up she was still in the 50th percentile...today she was in the 3rd. Yes, she went from 50th to 3rd in 3 months. The doctor today said that it could be a problem with her thyroid...So we get to go back in a month and i get to keep a detailed dietary journal until then. I pray everything goes well

Problem 2: her head is little. lol. yes. The doctor said that her head is very little for her age. she's just little all over. i mean she is 27 inches long and weighs 15 pounds. Heck, i was waiting for the day she'd hit 15 pounds!

Problem 3: Here is the whopper. The doctor was feeling around for Maggies soft spot. She rubbed all over her head for a good 5 minutes with no luck. The poor babys head was red when she was done. So now the fun (NOT) starts. The doctor is 90-95% sure that her skull has fused together (which shouldnt happen for like 8 more months). This means that her brain doesnt have room to grow. This could cause a number of things (none of them good). So i find out tomorrow when we get to drive to Nashville so they can put my daughter to sleep for this CT scan. I am not looking forward to that AT ALL. Depending on the results, she may have to have surgery. (again, i am not looking forward to that). They doctor today said she's pretty sure Maggie will need the surgery because there was not even the smallest indentation of a soft spot.  

UGH, anyway, the thought of having to just put her to sleep for this test makes my stomach crawl. Not to mention the possibility of surgery. A very good friend of mine pointed out the positives. My daughter isn't dying, she doesnt have cancer, she's not fighting for her life. (Thanks Jess). But selfishly, she's MY baby. The last baby I will ever have. I just don't know what I would do if she wasnt in my life. When I see her with her brother...ugh. (I am typing through teary eyes at this point).

I am just asking for prayers. Pray that God knows what He is doing and guides these doctors in whatever may need to happen. 

And I know that so many children have it worse so please dont tell me to suck it up and be thankful. I AM thankful for my children and I would die for them. It's just scary not knowing what is going on and what is going to happen. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and please take the time to say a little prayer. I will update everyone as soon as we have more information.

You can't knock me down!

I just reached 100 fans on my Maggie Shea Creations page on facebook today! I am so excited. It's just a shame that some random person that read a previous post on here of mine said that i need to work harder on my bows. Well, to whoever you are "Jenny" I am working hard on my bows. I am working really hard. Here are some NEW creations that I have made.

nothing is perfect but i am working on it. i guess sales speak for themselves. not everyone has to like what i make :)

  I like what i've made so far and i can only go up from here. So...if you like what you see, head on over to your facebook page and "like" Maggie Shea Creations. If you don't like them, then don't worry about it.







Kill them with kindness. Turn the other cheek. Don't be ugly to people, you never know if your mean comment will be the hair that breaks the camels back. Think before you speak and act.

Big decisions...

What does every parent or spouse want for their family? Nothing but the absolute best possible. Well, what if that means uprooting your family and moving away? What if that means staying exactly where you are? What if that means upsetting the people that you really care about? I say, if it's what is BEST for US, then that's all that matters. How do we decide what is best when every option is still us saying that we are willing to take a gamble? You never want to gamble where your family is concerned. You always want to do the "for sure" thing. What if NOTHING, NONE of the options are a for sure thing? Ugh, it's just risky business to deal with. Scary and frustrating. All I know is that my husband loves me and I love him and we will do whatever it takes to provide the very best for our children. Choices will be made soon. Maybe not today, but probably in the next week or so. Praying that we make the right choices for our family.

Squashing Dreams....

First of all let me say that NO ONE will EVER squash my dream. EVER. 

There are exciting things coming for Maggie Shea Creations! Right now I am strictly making bows. In the future I hope to add MANY more things.

*Simple bows
*Over the top bows
*Piggy sets
*Velcro bows (for those little girls with NOT enough hair but more than enough to just have a head band in)
*Tie (knotted) blankets
*Tie (knotted) pillows
*Bracelets
*Ankle bracelets
*Bottlecap creations (picture frames, stools, etc.)


Eventually I would LOVE to offer monogrammed items. I have no desire to learn how to sew though. lol. 


I am hoping that this bow business really turns into something that I can do full time! I would love to be able to be home with my kids and just be creative all day long!

Copy cat say what.....

Oh yes, that is right. I am so sick of being told to do my own thing and then a few months later that person turns around and does what I am doing. Awfully convenient to say "well i've always wanted to do this" yeah yeah. but you werent going to do it until i did. oh well. i know what i am capable of and i know that I can make it a long way. I'm not just saying that i want to make these things happen. I am actually working my little butt of to make something out of my ideas.

Gettin' those creative juices flowin...

I am SO excited about the things going on in my life at the moment. My marriage is good, my kids are great, we are all healthy...all is well in the Brown household. I started making bows 2 months ago but didn't really put any effort into it until now. I am really excited about the possibilities for Maggie Shea Creations. I'm only located on facebook for now, but by the end of the summer we COULD have a little booth somewhere...we'll see. I am looking to expand and really use my creativity. I am not posting on here what I am looking forward to doing. You'll just have to wait and see! I am just so excited. I have all of these ideas in my head and I just can't wait to see them come to life. It's just a very exciting time in my life! Thank the Lord for all of the blessings i have.

MAGGIE SHEA CREATIONS

DO YOU HAVE A FACEBOOK? AWESOME! IF NOT, GO CREATE ONE. BE SURE TO ADD "MAGGIE SHEA CREATIONS". WE WILL BE HOLDING AN AMAZING AUCTION TOMORROW THROUGH SATURDAY. THERE ARE BOWS, PIGGY SETS AND BOW HOLDERS. I ONE DAY HOPE TO CREATE SOME JEWELRY FOR SMALL CHILDREN AND "KNOT" BLANKETS...AMONG OTHER THINGS :)

wow....it's been a while....

Well, this is probably going to be some long, huge rambling of nothingness and everything will be all mixed up and probably be repeated...so i'll try to keep it straight...LOL

Let's update on the fam...

 Tyson and I:
We are doing great. No, we aren't perfect but we have a vision for the next couple of years and we will do whatever it takes to get us there. We are SO happy that we decided to go ahead and finish out our family earlier than originally planned. Now we can have a great time raising our three kids and this time...once i'm done with potty training Maggie...i won't have to do it ever again! LOL. YAY! We have started to make an honest effort to spend more quality time alone and as a family. So, for Mother's Day we took a family bowling trip. Were there problems that day? Oh yes. The boys sat in the back seat fighting with each other. Carson was obviously tired because he fell asleep right as we were pulling into the Family Fun Center. It was all in all a great day. My family isn't perfect but I love them more than they could possibly know.


Brayden:
(His favorite color is green)  My goodness, what to say about my BIG boy. He is graduating from Kindergarten on Friday. I am SO proud of him. He sang us some of the songs he will be singing in the ceremony. It's going to be a great day and he is SO excited. He's mostly excited about everyone that is coming. My mom and dad, sister, Ty's mom and dad and sister, and granny and grand daddy. He's just so excited to see everyone. We are going to check him out of school when the ceremony and take him out to lunch where ever he wants to go. We will come home to CAKE. yum yum. He's going to help me make it probably tomorrow right after school (because he has a ball game tomorrow night). He is LOVING playing ball. He's too advanced for the kids on his team so he sort of suffers through every game. There is one other little boy on his team that is just outstanding.  We are going to see about him playing soccer in the Fall because he says he wants to try. I don't have a problem with him trying any sport he wants...but once he starts something, he's not going to quit. I'm just excited that he is interested in being an athlete. He loves his video games and the tv but he loves even more to get outside and play. I love that about my son. He's a great kid and I'm so proud of him.

Carson:
(His favorite color is blue) Carson, Carson, Carson...he is something else. He's an amazing child and way TOO smart for his own good. lol. He has a bit of an attitude and has been trying to assert his authority here lately. I hate to break it to him...but he has NO authority in this house. lol. I'm upset that he can't start school in the Fall and he couldn't play ball this Spring. His birthday falls 10 days after the cut off date. 10 FREAKING DAYS. ugh. he is SO smart, i just hate to see him sit at home when i know he's ready to start something. Ugh, that's ok. That just reaffirms to me that I am doing a good job being a mom and teaching him things. It's so random the things that we count and talk about throughout the day. He's a great little kid and I am so blessed to have him in my life. He is so active. He LOVES his Nintendo DS but LOVES to play ball outside. He's getting really good. He says "lets go play wiffleball". It's SO cute. I am just glad that he wants to do things with us as a family. (trust me, i realize that in about 10 years, he's going to want to be with his friends...not his parents) I am just so proud of my little man. He's turning into this little boy that is SO loving and smart. But he is also so emotional and wants you to know how he feels. Ugh, HE IS HIS FATHERS SON. lol

 Maggie:
(she hasn't picked a favorite color yet, lol) It is SO amazing what God blesses me with. Sometimes I feel so undeserving. She is will be 6 months old on May 18th. I took her to the doctor a week ago (i thought she had an ear infection) and she's up to 14.5 pounds. That excites me because for the first couple of months I didn't feel like she was gaining weight like she should. She's amazing. She says "ma ma", "da da", and sometimes it sounds like she's saying bye bye.  She's been rolling over for quite a while now. Now she gets up on her hands and knees and rocks back and forth. She walks when people hold her hands. He does NOT like the grass. lol. She loves playing in her excersaucer. She's building those little leg muscles. I think she'll be crawling before she's 7 months. I had someone tell me that she's advanced and usually when babies are that far ahead that means mommy is expecting again....well...THATS NOT POSSIBLE. I don't care if she's advanced or not, she's my daughter and I think she's perfect. She LOVES her brothers so much. It is SO cute to see them with each other. She has her moments where she wants no one but her Daddy...but more times than not, she's all about her mommy. That tickles me to death because my boys want to be with their daddy. I am so blessed to have finally had a daughter. :) i feel SO lucky

All in all, I am SO happy with my life. We are getting things in order for our family and we are planning for a great future.

Promoting my new business...

If you have little girls, I have the bows for you! I am just starting out so I do not have a lot to look at right now. Please log into your Facebook accounts and search "Maggie Shea Creations". I will do anything you need! Your daughter is on a cheer team? Great, I can make bows for the WHOLE team at a discounted rate. I will do custom orders. I am doing this all from my home while caring for my 2 smallest children and our dog. Lol. Please go to that page and hit "LIKE" and be sure to SHARE it on your page to spread the word. I will ship anywhere in the U.S. for FREE. Thanks so much you guys.


here are some of the bows I have created so far...

 Christmas

 summertime

 4th of July

 Happy Birthday

 Halloween

 4th of July

This one is just bigger than a quarter!

Patience

Patience...ahhhh, something i lack so much! Becoming a mother, i grew to be more patient with things. I can't just yell and fuss when something goes wrong. 

Having Brayden a month after turning 19 kind of opened my eyes a little. I don't really feel like everything was all about me, so it wasn't hard for me to make my son my number 1 priority. He is now in school and i have gained a little more patience because I sit down with him in the evenings to do homework. It's just frustrating when you know how smart your child is but he gets bored because he's gone over his words all day in school and that's the last thing he wants to do when he gets home. lol.

 Carson is STILL potty training. The boy is 3 and still pees in his pants! UGH! It's hard to deal with. But it's NOTHING new. My oldest would pee in the potty but would poop on himself. He did this until he was 3 1/2. Finally I got it through to him that none of his t-ball buddies wore pullups..lol. Yes, i guilted my son into being a big boy. Oh well, no harm done and it worked. Carson is the most stubborn little thing. He will poop in the potty and clean himself up with no problem, but he doesnt care if he has pee in his pullup. EW! Hopefully, with a little patience (lol) he will be fully potty trained before Summer!

Maggie. I have to have patience with her. She's only 3 1/2 months old. There are times when she's so tired that no one can soothe her, there are times where she only wants me, there are times when she only wants her daddy, and there are times that i dont think she even knows what she wants. I am starting to feed her baby food. Since she was about 1 1/2 months old, i've put a little oatmeal in her night time bottle. At this point, i am ALWAYS putting oatmeal into every bottle. I never did that with my boys. BUT, she is having a little trouble putting on some weight so I am going to keep doing it. Now i know that many people dont start their kids on baby food of any kind until 4 months old or later. Well great for you. lol. This child will eat an entire jar of pears...but boy does she not like anything else. Last night, we tried squash...but i dont blame her for not liking it. I dont either. lol. So, i must have patience. lol.

These are children though. They need you to have some patience with them because they do not know any better. It's adults that I have no patience with. I am so tired of being held to a different standard than other people. Why should you expect more from me than you do your other family members or friends? And just because you have patience with YOUR spouse and let them throw their little tantrums doesnt mean i'm going to do that. Grown people should act grown. DUH! lol. There are some ladies I know...well lets just say that i would never act that way. AND IF I DID, i would have my husband right there saying "Heather, you are wrong. Do not act like this" and I'm sure there are other times where he would tell me that im being stupid and so on. But you get my point. Now I'm not saying that a husband or boyfriend should "rule" or "boss" a female around but I am so THANKFUL that i have a husband that keeps me grounded and thinking rationally. Let me tell ya, if you pretty much let me know that you don't want me in your life...there are a couple of things that I would like from you:
1. tell me what in the hell i did wrong
2. make sure i am the one you are really upset with
3. if you cut me out of your life, dont expect me to be around when you decide that your little tantrum is over

I honestly just do NOT have the patience for adults (mostly women) that seem to think the world revolves around them. I live in this world. Earth. I live in America, where i can have whatever opinion I want about anything I want. I am just smart enough to know that there are times to say something and times to keep my mouth shut. I wish everyone else would learn that. 

I guess I must start having a little more patience all around. This is something that I know i need to work on. But instead of giving me a hard time when i say something, ask me questions about where i got my information or why i feel that way. I give LOTS of my friends advice on LOTS of different topics (because they ASK ME). I give advice on boyfriends, husbands, relationships, parenting, money, grocery planning... all sorts of things. My thing is, it's not the word of God just because it comes out of my mouth. God gave me a brain and the ability to form my own opinions. So, if you dont agree with me on things, great. You don't have to do things the way that I do them. But maybe you could have a little patience with me. 

I'm not expert on relationships or parenting, but i try to give good advice. My husband and I have had some pretty hard times...in every way. I think they only think we hadnt experienced together when we got married was death. AND we took care of that last year sadly, when my Papaw passed away. I'm not saying that we know everything, but we've got a pretty good hold of our lives and we know what the plans are for the next few years. There will be bumps, but the good thing is that we both have PATIENCE and know that good things come to those who wait. And buddy, we are waiting! LOL! 

This turned into more of a rant than anything else, but oh well. I just guess i need to have more patience with people. But people need to realize that they are responsible for their own actions and i have no patience when you act stupid. So while you throw your little tantrum and direct your anger at me (when i dont deserve it) yeah...i dont have patience for that. Basically just be accountable for yourself. I screw up all the time but God has enough patience with me to let me screw up, learn from my mistakes and grow into a better person. I pray we are all lucky enough to realize that...

That's enough for now...lol. Just have some patience...geez. LOL

Parenting

I am just going to be open, honest and just raw in this post. So, if you read something you don't like...stop reading my blog because I am not here to sugar coat your life for you. Thanks!

Obviously I am the mother of 3 wonderful children. They are wonderful and perfect in my eyes and I don't care if you dont see them that way. Yes, my children fight. well, my boys do. my daughter isnt big enough for that yet, lol! i have a 5 year old son in kindergarten, a 3 year old son and a 3 1/2 month old daughter. I have been told MANY times that my children are smart and so well behaved! HA! i laugh at that. yes, my children CAN BE well behaved when we are out in public, but they are children. they are going to make mistakes and it is my job as their mother to help them learn the right thing (what I consider the right thing) to do. Now, i DO think my children are very smart. My son Brayden is doing SO WELL in school. Other parents have told me, his teachers and teachers aides all tell me that he retains every bit of information that they go over. I think that is WONDERFUL and i am so blessed that he is doing so well and enjoys going to school SO much. My 3 year old, was talking in full sentences before he was 2. to me, he had the advantage of having my oldest son as an example. Since Brayden has started school, Carson has gained ALOT of information because he sits at the table when it's homework time. Dont tell me that your 2 year old is as smart as my 5 year old. Sorry but i dont believe you. Here is my thing about parenting...being a parent is hard enough without having your "friend" put you down. But they do it in a way that makes it sound like they arent talking to you. Just because someone elses child isnt as smart as yours (so YOU think) doesnt mean that child has developmental delays. and just because a child has developmental delays doesnt mean that its their parents fault. that is so absurd! There are MANY reasons that children are developmentally slower than other children their age. They were born early or there were complications at their birth and sometimes it IS because the parents dont take the time to work with their children. HOWEVER, a child should not be forced to LEARN 24/7. now i understand that you can make learning fun, and that's how my husband and i have done it. 

I will specifically say that a friend of mine had twins that were 6 1/2 weeks early. To me, it is normal if they have delays of any kind. I have seen her work with them. You can't sit your children down 24/7 and make them learn things. When they are ready to do things, they will do them! The twins are very bright and KNOW a lot, they just don't talk alot. They'll talk when they are ready but in the meantime, momma just keeps encouraging them. That's all she can do at this point.

I guess here is my point, women in general are HARD on other women. BUT WHY? we all fought so hard to gain the rights that we now have and for what? to be able to tell another woman what her RIGHTS are? That is ridiculous. We need to rally together and support one another. I tell you something else, there is nothing worse you can do to a woman than criticize her as a mother. That just eats me up. My children are older than most of my friends kids. So pardon my if I dont take advice from someone who has never gone through the things that I am going through. If your daughter is one and my son is 5, you can't "help" me. Sorry. As a parent you gain knowledge from experience and I am about 4 or 5 years ahead of most of my friends. AND if you have a girl and I have a boy...it's not the same. Sorry, that is just something that irritates me to the core. I mean would parents rather their kids be smart and healthy or smart and overweight? we all want what is best for our children. and we ALL see what is best as something totally different. 

I am going to push my kids to do their best and if someone thinks that makes me mean, so be it. Like last night with my son. We were going over his word list and he kept forgetting the one word. Well I kept pushing him to sound it out and try to say it. That doesnt make me mean. I would be a failure as a parent if i just let him give up when i know he is SO smart. AND, i'm going to push my kids in sports. I LOVED being an athlete growing up and so did my husband. We want our children to have the same experiences that we had. Playing sports can help with self esteem issues, self confidence...it helps you make friends that you wouldnt otherwise have ever met. It's overall just a great thing. It may seem shallow as well to say this but playing sports and being active is part of living a healthy lifestyle. I am not going to fail my children where their health is concerned. The deserve for me to be a good mother. 

Lol, ok ok...i'll stop. I just wish women weren't so freakin hard on other women. It's hard enough as it is being a mother. Why tear another mother down? If it makes you feel good to do that, that is SO sad and i pity you. Women, mothers, sister, friends...lets rally behind one another and give each other the support we need and deserve!!! 

Miss Maggie Shea

Miss Maggie Shea graced us late on November 18th. She was my biggest in weight but my smallest in length. 7 lbs 12 oz and 19 inches long at 9:50 pm She is growing up so fast. With this being my last baby, it's made me want to baby her more. lol. I get a little concerned about her weight at times but take comfort in the fact that her doctor is wonderful and is keeping an eye on her. It took a while to get her back up to her birth weight though. When we left the hospital she was 7lbs 7oz (Saturday) and when I took her on Monday to be checked out she was 7lbs 4oz. When I took her for her one month check up she was up to 8lbs 4oz. I thought this was great news! My baby was being breastfed 24/7 and was gaining weight. I felt so accomplished, mostly because I was unable to breastfeed my boys. At 2 months she was at 9lbs 4 oz. I thought this was odd. I mean, my boys always gained more than just one pound a month. I brought this up to the doctor and she assured me that we would keep an eye on her weight. So, I took her this past Monday to be checked out. She weighed 10lbs 1oz. NOT EVEN A POUND GAINED. close. but close isnt enough. The doctor once again assured me that she was still in the 10th to 25th percentile in weight for her age. (she's in the 75th percentile for height). Maybe my baby girl is just going to be tall and skinny. I guess the reason i was SO concerned was because since having surgery, my milk has dried up and she's been on formula since Jan. 29th. I thought that surely she would be GAINING weight because I was keeping an eye on how much she ate and putting some oatmeal in her night time feeding. Now I'm not exactly sure WHEN babies should be hitting milestones, but my little girl is kind of impressive! lol. to me anyway! She just stares and stares at everything around her. Taking it all in. She can grasp things with her hands. The other day she picked up the TV remote. lol. She laughs! She has the sweetest smile ever. And those BIG blue eyes! ugh, i could just eat her up. Funny enough, while I am typing, she is laying in the floor staring at herself in the mirror on her toy. She has turned herself in a complete circle. Earlier today I sat her in between my legs and noticed that she is starting to try to sit up on her own. It's good that she's working on her balance. I'm just so excited to watch her grow, and watch my boys with her. My boys are so sweet to their baby sister. They love dancing around and making her laugh. It's exciting being a mom! I guess I should not worry and just wait until her 4 month check up. There is nothing I can do really. I don't want to feed her MORE or make her eat when she's not hungry. I want a good and healthy baby. So far, that's what she is. I'll just keep praying that she stays that way.

Last night was a tough one for this momma. I usually swaddle my baby girl and rock her to sleep. That has stopped as of last night. I put her down with just her pacifier. She fussed and my wonderful hubby went back there to just talk to her. Then he went back again. Finally she did her "momma" cry (and yes she has a daddy cry too) and so i walked back there. Without saying a word I turned her on her side and put her pacifier in her mouth and covered her back up...she was sleeping by 9:30. She slept until 3:30 this morning. I woke to her crying so i went in there (in the dark) and gave her back her paci. She went to sleep until about 5:30 and again, i gave her back her paci. Now we've been up since 6:15. Well I've been up since then. She's obviously had a couple naps! lol. I hate to hear her cry but I wont always be able to rock her. I want her to be able to fall asleep on her own and be able to soothe herself if she wakes in the night. I mean, i'm not going to be able to go to college with her and rock her to sleep. lol. I just hope that the time I spend with her (and each of my children) is precious and that they remember it. It's not always about the quantity of time spend. It's more about the quality. I'm just trying to be the best mother I possible can be....and I think I'm doing alright.

Breastfeeding vs. Bottle feeding

This is the never ending topic...lol...

My first two kids were bottle fed pretty much from birth. I tried breastfeeding and pumping but nothing would take for long. So I was really excited when I had my daughter and i could exclusively breastfeed her. Luckily I stay at home with my children so that meant that I could actually breastfeed her. Not pump and put it in a bottle. However, I had my tubes tied and didn't pump for at least 12 hours...thus, she is on formula now. I feel horrible about that.As long as the is staying healthy, I'm all for whatever is going to work.


A breastfeeding mom and I have had this talk multiple times. Yes with bottle feeding there is a higher risk of over feeding. I shouldn't say bottle feeding, i mean formula fed babies have a higher risk of being over fed. I can see how this is true. A new mother just knows that her baby is not happy. He may be changed, cleaned, bathed and all and still not be happy. So what does she do...pop a bottle in his mouth. I can easily see how this can happen. My boys were not overfed. They have always been a healthy weight for their age and height. My second son could eat a ridiculous amount of food. He was eating 8 ounces of cereal (oatmeal) from a feeder PLUS an 8 ounce bottle. It seemed like I was feeding him TOO much, but the doctor said he was just a hungry boy. There is a huge difference in your child being really hungry and healthy and you feeding your child until they are way too big for their age.


My daughter was breastfed for 2 1/2 months. Now she is only getting formula. I knew that breastfeeding meant that I was helping her. I was protecting her from germs and illness. Now I worry. I just wonder if formula can help her immune system build up like my milk could. Truthfully, it breaks my heart to feed her formula. HOWEVER, i could pump for 10 minutes and only produce about an ounce. In that length of time, she can drink 4 ounces. So maybe, in all honesty, my body just couldn't keep up with the demand. UGH! I really hate it. I have to take comfort in the fact that I made the choice to at least give breastfeeding a true and fair shot. It worked for a while but it came to an end. 


Hopefully keeping an eye on how much my daughter is eating will be enough. I will most certainly not be giving her a bottle each time she makes a whimper. You see, I understand that formula fed babys can easily be over fed and this can cause serious problems down the road. You infant develops poor eating habits as a toddler and it just continues throughout their life. My boys are healthy and thriving and I look forward to being able to do that for my daughter as well. 




Many women feel that bottle feeding is easier than breast feeding. Well I do not see how. Most women are too embarrassed to breastfeed in public. However there are many pros for making that choice. Your breast milk is always with you. It's always at the perfect temperature. It gives your baby a chance for her immune system to build up. You don't have to lug around a huge diaper bag with extra formula and bottles. That is however, a pro for formula feeding. Just drop a spoonful of formula into a warm bottle and there you go. lol. It's as easy as that. Which ever way a mother goes is her choice. In my opinion though, I feel like God made us able to produce milk for our babies and we should all give breast feeding a fair shot. If it doesn't work out, at least you tried. BUT if you never try, you'll always wonder if you could do it...

What a week...

Whew...what a week! Monday, it snowed and so my 5 year old came home early from school...and he has yet to be back to school this week. lol. Maybe he'll go back tomorrow.

I love ALL of my children equally. One means no more to me than another. We have gotten a routine established for each week and it has been thrown WAY off this week. I love having my kids with me but I tell you, my boys could make a girl insane. lol! 

I must be honest, i HATE the parents that make each and every single day of their life seem like such a joy. Now, having my children in my life...that IS a joy. However, we all need to be honest and admit that there are some days that we just want to pull our hair out. lol...for example...

I have a 5 year old, a 3 year old and a 2 month old. The first two are boys. Having them alone (like when the oldest is in school) everything is fine. They will each play calmly and not yell or be upset. But buddy you get them together and they fight like there's no tomorrow. They love each other dearly. You can see that clearly in the moments when they think no one is looking and they hug, or when they call each other "buddy".  Maybe it's just having children close in age and the same sex. My sister and I are only 14 months apart and we fought all the time growing up. Maybe it's just a boy thing, My boys have no problem getting rough with one another. Until one of them gets hurt that is. Then here they come running. "He hit me" "nu-uh, he hit me first". Most days i just brush them off and say "if yall want to play rough, someone is always going to get hurt. and i dont want to hear about it::. Seems harsh but if BOTH of them make the choice to rough house, they don't need to be little babies and run to me when the other gets too rough. Now that's not so say that there is no discipline. My husband and I have watched one randomly walk up behind the other and either kick or hit. This is obviously not acceptable. They HATE what happens if they are caught being just outwardly mean to each other. First they are punished, and then I make them hug. LOL. Let me tell you, they don't like that at all. 

But hey - I'm guessing these young years are not the ones I should be worried about. Them fighting every once in a while at this age must be normal. However when they get to be teenagers....uh oh...momma may not be ready for that. lol! Oh lordy, but then there is also my daughter who will be a teenager.....

I should just pull all my hair out now....lol....

Ten Commandments For Marriage

1. Do not place others before one another
 * For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife. Gen. 2:24a

2. Let nothing on earth become for important than your marriage.
 *Seek first God's will in your marriage and the other things will come as He desires. from Matt. 6:33


3. Speak to one another with kindness and love.
 * Like apples of gold in settings of silver is a word kindly spoken. Prov. 25:11


4. Remember to worship together.
 * Oh come, let us worship and bow down. Let us kneel before the Lord our maker. For he is our God... Psalm 95:6-7a


5. Love and accept one another's family as your own.
 * ...your people shall be my people... Ruth 1:16c


6. Do not harm one another with words, attitudes or actions.
 * Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, and evil speaking be put away from you...and be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ has forgiven you. Eph. 4:31-32


7. Be faithful to one another.
 * The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Gal. 5:22-23


8. Never take joy from one another.
 * Above all things put on love, which hold everything together in perfect harmony. Col. 3:14


9. Always speak the truth in love.
 * The Lord will show you what is right and true, that you may always speak with integrity. from Prov. 22:21


10. Do not desire or be envious of what others may have.
 * I have learned that in whatsoever stat I may be, to be content. Phil 4:11


This is a plaque that my parents gave Tyson and I when we got married. It is so true. We are not perfect and we falter many times, in our marriage and in our life. However, this hangs on our wall and we get to see it everyday. We may not pay attention to it everyday, but everyone once in a while we glance up to see it and it reminds us of the right things. I just wanted to share this with all of you because I love it and hope someone else will too.

Time to grow up

Today marked an awesome day! My last name is officially Brown! Whoo hoo. It only took me 3 years to change it. LOL.  There was never any reason for me to not go have it changed. I just honestly didn't want to drag my kids down to the DMV and then Social Security office. I just felt like I'd be stuck there all day and my kids would get restless quickly. Thank goodness it didn't turn out that way. I got up at 6 and showered and got the kids ready Since I had put their clothes out and packed the bag last night, all we had to do was clean up and get dressed. It didn't take long at all. DMV took about an hour and the SSA took only 15 minutes. Yay! I'm so glad that's all taken care of.

Now our family is complete and life can really get started. How is it getting started you wonder...i am going to be the proud owner of a blue mini van Saturday. I know, i know...a 24 year old driving a mini van?! Yeah well, it's what I want. My kids WILL play some sort of sport. They kind of don't have a choice in the matter. My two boys LOVE baseball and they WANT to play. I was an athlete and so was my husband. We take pride in being athletic and in shape. Hell, I think being an athlete for 15 years is what has helped me bounce back from pregnancy so well. Plus, I feel like my children deserve parents that take care of themselves. I could not imagine my 5 year old asking me to play soccer with him and having to tell him no. I am a healthy and active person and my kids will be the same. Like I said, they will not have a say in the matter. Also, playing sports provides a great opportunity to travel and meet people from different areas. I played travel ball from 3rd grade all the way through high school. I'm so glad my parents let me do that because I made friends from all over doing that. It was great. It also provided a lot of family time together. I can remember just sitting in the hotel when we went for a tournament and just playing cards with my parents. It just let us spend some great quality time together.


Now I've been scolded (in a VERY round about way) about planning for my children to play sports when one if them is in kindergarten. Well, like I said I want my kids to have the same athletic experiences that my husband and I had.  If that makes me a bad parent, so be it. However I strongly feel like each parent is different and if you don't want your child to play sports, that's on you. But don't knock me for wanting to give my kids a good experience.


Being healthy in my family is VERY important. Now we don't eat organically or anything. We just try to be smart about the things we do. It is amazing to me that people want to take toys out of kids meals because that is sending the wrong message to kids. HELLO, you are the parent. If you dont want to take your child there...don't! We eat a balance. I love a cheeseburger but I also enjoy a salad. My kids eat a variety of things. I sneak in veggies where ever I can. I make meatloaf, chicken pot pit, chili...thats just to name a few. I can get all sorts of veggies in that way. It's just about providing a chance for my children. When they are up and grown and move out of my house, they can eat whatever they want. BUT as of right now...lol! My children eat well, sleep well and take care of themselves. The dentist is amazed that their teeth are so nice. Well, Brayden brushes his own teeth so all the credit goes to him, but why is that? It's because I took the time to teach him. My children have never gone to the doctor and gotten a bad report. They are a healthy weight for their age and height. I feel bad for children that are over weight at such a young age. Especially when the parents think that their child is healthy. Parents really tick me off. Just because you don't care if you are healthy, you should care enough about your kids to say "no". There is no reason for a child to walk about with a drink all day or to snack 24/7. That is just creating bad habits for the future. 


Some of my friends come to me and ask me parenting advice. I'm ok with that. I think they come to me mainly because my children are older than theirs so I might have already gone through what they are going through. Here's my thing, don't ask me advice and then go get all pissy about. I experience the same thing in my marriage. People want to know what makes "us" work. All I know is what works for me and my husband. Any who...i need to cut this short. lol. Things to do and a baby to feed. 


I am in no way stating that I am an expert at the topics discussed above. I'm am merely stating the way things happen in my home and the things i will NEVER let happen.

love it or hate it, this is me

Oh how to start something out about myself...

I am really a simple kind of girl. I love my husband and kids more than anything. Don't try to ever make me choose because you probably will NOT like my answer. I have few close friends. Don't be sad. It's that way for a reason. I have my wonderful husband that I consider to be my best friend. Then there is Jess, Joel and Raven. Those are the people that I consider myself to be close to. Ty and Jess pretty much know everything about me. Joel and Raven are just learning, lol. I really hate liars. If you can't tell the truth, just keep your mouth shut. Also, I am the best person to discuss ME with. I come off as rude or mean when all I am really doing is being honest. My mouth has gotten me into trouble many times. Most times, I'm just putting a thought out there and someone gets offended. Couple things, if i was writing about you...i would put your name, if you are taking offense to my rambling maybe it's because you are finding some truth in it. 

I love being a stay at home mom. A lot of people ASSume that I'm lazy (yes i AM calling you people an ass). This is not the case. I actually LOVE working outside of the home. It just so happens that for now, it is best if I stay at home with my kids. I actually prefer that. My kids are less sick that kids that go to daycare. Staying at home allowed me to breastfeed my baby girl (although i have had to stop and I  HATE it.) I get to provide a service for my children that I would not trust someone else to do. I can make sure my daughters diaper is changed and that she is fed when she is hungry. I can make sure my son does a good job wiping when he goes potty. Those are just things that I dont feel like would be important to someone else. My sister worked in a daycare and it was horrible there. She could not believe the workers acted that way. I am not saying all day cares are like that but the ONLY one I know about was horrible. I'd just rather stay at home with my babies. Another thing is that i get to have them help make supper for their daddy (not all the time) and they LOVE it. Alot of working parents don't get home until 5 or later. I enjoy being able to spend time with my kids. Not just rush home, make dinner, do homework and then its off to bed for them. I am very blessed to be able to be a stay at home mom. Most days aren't perfect, but hey - name ONE person that has had a PERFECT day. lol.

I am so excited about the mini van I will own as of Saturday. Yes, one person I know said that she makes fun of people in mini vans..and i told her she could get ready to make fun of me...lol! If I just had 2 kids, I probably wouldnt want a mini van. But I have three and they will all play sports. I wanted something with enough room for them to be comfortable and for all their gear. Plus, I can go get my friends (and their kids) and haul them around now...lol. My mom hauled my sister and I around to play ball and I plan on doing the same for my kids. I am prepared to take on that "soccer mom" or whatever sport, i am ready to be that mom for my kids. Plus, a mini van is better than no vehicle at all and my parents have told me that it's a really nice van! I can't wait.

 I am such a sensitive person and i HATE that about myself. I get my feelings hurt WAY too easily. I like to think I have a good sense of humor. I make my husband laugh, if that counts. lol. I would rather sit at home on my butt with my family than go out and get drunk.


I told myself I would not let myself rant and rave on here...so i am going to TRY not to. I have had a lot on my mind here lately and just wish I could put it out there. But I am going to try to be a mature adult and keep it to myself. Raven's already heard it anyway. lol. Love ya Raven! 


I am an open book. ask me anything and i will tell you the honest truth....

I am a very sensitive person and I HATE that about myself

Introduction to my world

Ok, let's see how this thing goes....

My name is Heather Brown. I am 24 years old and have a wonderful family. My husband and I did things a little backwards but we wouldn't change that for anything. Tyson is such a wonderful man. We have our ups and downs, but sometimes when we look around at the other couples our age (with kids and without) we honestly think that we must be something rare. Ty and I met in August 2004. I had just graduated high school and headed off to Jackson, Tn to attend Lambuth Univ. Basically we met, developed a relationship and here came Brayden Charles. A couple years later we welcomed Carson Benjamin, got married and then welcomed Maggie Shea. 

A little about my family...

Tyson - He is honestly the most hard working man I know. He would do anything for me and the kids. He is the first guy that I ever thought was handsome. Growing up I mostly thought boys were cute, but not Ty. He is so handsome. I knew there was something special about him if I was looking at him like a man instead of just some guy. lol. He is such an amazing person. He is very smart, extremely athletic and has a sense of humor that not many can appreciate.  I could not imagine spending my life with anyone else. He understands who I am and accepts that. He doesn't try to change me in anyway. He is one of the most understanding men I have ever met in my life. There is just one thing that most people don't like about him...he is extremely honest. Yes, that SHOULD be a good trait, but many dislike it. Basically if you dont want his honest opinion, don't ask bc if he gets the chance to say i told you so...he will. lol.

Brayden - Ah, my first born. Starting out was a little rocky. I was 18 when I got pregnant and turned 19 before he was born. He is a very funny and sensitive child. He started school this year and LOVES it. It's so exciting to see him so excited about learning and being rewarded for doing well. He loves baseball and this Spring will be his 3rd year playing. He's excited because this year he will get to play "coach pitch". 

Carson - Oh lord where do I even begin. This is the goofiest child alive I think. He loves to make people laugh (little does he realize we are laughing AT him...lol). He is a very smart little boy for his age. He is going to be a guys guy. He's a rough little thing and can hold his own. BUT you should see his poor little face if his Daddy gets on to him. It just breaks his little heart.

Maggie - What a blessing it was to find out that our last baby was going to be a girl. I honestly went into my pregnancy SURE that I would have another boy. That would have been just fine with me, but I am so happy that I have this little person in my life. She's amazing. She's only about 2 1/2 months old at this point. She loves to jibber jabber and it is so cute to watch. It's also amazing to watch ALL 3 of my men melt when she smiles at them.

My family is not perfect but we put in work every single day to make it a better life for us. Ty and I communicate very well (now) but haven't always been that way. We find ourselves giving out advice to our friends. We don't mind, we love to help any one, any way we can. This is just a preview to my story. There WILL be much more. 

It may not be perfect, but I love it. This is my life....