Appointment time..

Got all call this morning from the doctor's nurse. Maggie goes next Friday, September 2nd for her scan of her skull. I don't really know what to hope for. The dr says she's pretty sure that her skull has already fused together and she may have been born with part of it already fused. So I am expecting those results. That he skull has fused together and that her brain doesn't have room to grow. So with that, I am expecting that she will need the surgery to give her brain room to grow. I am willing to do whatever needs to be done to protect my child and make her life better. 

Lots of things have been going through my mind and most of them are silly little things that I dont need to be worried about at all. I am grateful that there IS a surgery to fix the problem and that my daughter isn't fighting for her life. I don't think I'm strong enough to deal with that. Dana Rucker, now that momma is strong and little Maddie is in my prayers. It's just hard. I AM thankful that this is something that can be fixed BUT i am terrified that my baby will have to be operated on.

Basically, from what i've gathered and been told, is that they will remove a small part of her skull to give her brain room to grow. I am assuming she will have to wear some sort of helmet to protect her head. Eventually a metal plate will be placed over the hole. 

That brings up a WHOLE list of fears. Now there is the possibility that she could have not just one surgery but two. Ugh. And then...well i grew up an athlete and got SO excited when I found out that i was having a girl. I would LOVE for my boys to follow in their Daddy's footsteps and play baseball and football...whatever they want to do. I'll be happy as a clam if they want to play soccer too. BUT when I found out it was a girl, i was happy because i thought i could have a mini me. She could play soccer (or whatever she wants to play, seriously). But the fear that she wouldn't be able to be competitive physically. There are other things she can do. Piano, karate, any instrument. I just hate to think that she won't have the same opportunities that i had and that her brother will have. 




Anyway, silly concerns for now. Let's wait for next Friday's test results and we can go from there...


God Bless my baby girl. Please keep her safe and keep your hands on her.