slacker!!

Ugh, I hate to admit it but I didnt work out at all over the weekend. BUT I HAVE A GREAT REASON. It's hard to even breathe. Pretty sure I have a sinus infection, yay for me. I plan on getting right back on track tomorrow. Everything has moved from my head to my throat and chest. Ugh, it's not fun. The worst part is that my baby girl has a runny nose too :( Poor baby. Anywho, for those of you who randomly read this...just didnt want you to think i was slacking. I have a goal and i plan on hitting it.

Day 3: Shoulders & Arms, Ab ripper X

P90X is going to KILL me! lol. So I figured out that i don't have the proper equipment to do the whole Shoulder and Arm routine. I have a band but it looks like i either need to go get 2 different bands or I need to go get some little weights. The Ab Ripper X killed me! UGH!. Hey- I made it through the whole workout. My tummy is my trouble area so I'll suffer through it! HAHA. I WILL be feeling this later tonight and tomorrow! My whole body is sore now. Whew. I know Cardio is coming but I need to go ahead and get out and run. For one, I dont have anyone to run with. i HATE running alone! Yes I could go jog with my kiddos...but seriously?! I can't run with the hubby because I can't keep up with him. Lucky guy, he's still in shape. In fact, I think he looks better now than he did when we first met. Yeah he's gained some weight but it's been in all the right places. Even with all the extra muscle tone, he's lost about 10 lbs since we moved to Clarksville. So now, more than ever, he has that nice "V" shape from his shoulders to his waist. Ugh, he's so hot but he makes me sick. I dont wanna have to work so hard to get what he has naturally. LOL. Just kidding. I am willing to put in the work...some days. But so far I haven't skipped a day...which is AMAZING. We've bought all sorts of things for me to work out with. I've got the "bender ball", i have ankle weights and i have the Wii fitness stuff. I use them all for a little while and then tucker out and give up. NOT THIS TIME. It might be hard to stick with since the holidays are coming up, but i am going to try my best. I am hoping I can talk my hubby into buying me the Zumba workout for the Wii so i can do that one day and P90X the next. That way I'm not doing the same type of workout every day! He knows I get bored easily but we made a promise. If I can stick with P90X for a while (probably a week or two) I can buy the Zumba stuff. I mean it's $40 and neither of us wants to buy it so it can just sit in the case. hee hee...i am guilty as charged. Today was an easier day for me. Mostly because i honestly LOVE ab workouts. lol. and probably because the band i have couldnt be used for all of the different things. Oh well. Maybe I'll invest in some little weights. Probably no more than 10 lb weight. Hey - as an athlete i know that it's not about how much weight you can lift, it's the repetition using the same weight. Wish me luck! Hopefully I can pick up those weights tomorrow :)

Day 2: Plyometrics

OMG! The plyometrics workout is so freakin hard! I did this workout yesterday morning and let me tell you, i can feel it today! Whew. It is so hard. I hope i can stick with it! My arm, legs, butt...everything is SORE. Ugh, my abs are so sore that i feel like i could puke. Oddly enough I find that to be a great feeling. That means I am working hard and doing what i need to be doing. LOL. Only an athlete would say something like that :) Today's workout looks to be Shoulders & Arms PLUS AB Ripper X. I am not looking forward to it but plan on making it through the whole thing! Thanks for following me!

Day 1

Ok so obviously I am in worse shape than I thought. I only made it through HALF of the first work out video. SERIOUSLY?! Ugh. But in my defense, I DO have a BAD back and that's what we were working out yesterday :( Every single pushup i did felt like a knife going into my lower back. It's not a fun feeling. I may not have made it through the entire video but i am NOT stopping. I will continue on today with the next cd on the program. Thanks to my wonderful sister in law for sending me the workout sheets so I know what order to do things in. Ugh, this is going to kick my butt! BUT I HAVE TO DO IT! I am SORE this morning so at least i know that means i was really trying last night. I WILL get there. I am DETERMINED to!

Making a change :)

In light of my recent feelings about my body, I have decided to make a change. NO NO, i am NOT going to diet. lol. I don't NEED to diet. My dad has p90x and is going to let me borrow it. Now, i think i would like the "Insanity" work outs better but the p90x is FREE so that's what i am doing :) 

I think I'm going to try to blog about my journey. Now I am not obese and it's not going to be some huge deal if and when i lose weight and better my life. It's kind of like seeing these tv shows like Jon and Kate plus 8 or 19 kids and counting. Yes, it is rare and interesting but where are the shows about NORMAL, AVERAGE families? Well this is the journey of THIS normal, mommy of 3 who used to be an athlete and in amazing shape and just wants her body back. Trust me, it's not like I think i'm going to turn into some hott momma. I just want to look in the mirror and LOVE ME. I am hoping to get started tomorrow afternoon OR Wednesday morning.

I haven't decided if i want to work out before bed or early in the morning. If I work out at night, the kids will be in bed already and my hubby can work out with me. Then again, if i get up EARLY in the morning I can work out while the kids are sleeping and my hubby can work out with me...the downside to that is that it'd have to be at like 4:30-5 in the morning. His alarm goes off at 5:30 and if we worked out, we'd both have to shower. Him because he needed to go to work and me because it's never a good idea to have 3 kids roaming around while trying to shower:) Either way, it's GOING to happen. I am happy to get started...

WHENEVER i start, i will weigh myself and keep track of it that way. Yay:) IF i lose weight, i dont NEED to lose much. I'm already smaller than average but I'd like to be able to go and play with my kids outside without sucking eggs...LOL! Thanks for supporting me in my journey to get fit :)

Weight :(

I don't know what it is or why but i HATE looking in the mirror. I just don't know how to get out of this funk. I look at my children and i honestly think my boys are so handsome and so cute and my daughter is beautiful :) My husband is extremely attractive (to me, i dont care if you dont think so!). Then I see myself...and I just don't know what to think. It's SO freakin hard to ignore someone that is so close to you and they SHOULD have your best interests at heart WHEN EVER they say ANYTHING to you or about it. So it's hard to get poked in my belly and have someone blow their cheeks up at me like i'm huge. It's hard to hear someone tell you that there are roads around here (my house) that are safe to go running on. BUT HERE'S THE THING...I DON'T THINK I'M FAT!!! Anytime I have a weight issue, I talk to my hubby about it. He knows where I am coming from. He was an athlete growing up just like me so he knows SORT OF what it's like and where I'm coming from. I HAVE HAD THREE KIDS. After the first two, it barely looked like I had ever been pregnant. BUT WITH THE THIRD, MY ONLY GIRL...my hormones got all messed up. For some reason my hormones are completely different than they were "pre-Maggie". I get hot really easily, I'm uncomfortable in some clothing, my cycle is totally different (tmi but if you didnt want to know, you shouldnt be reading this). Everything about my body has changed. The only thing that changed for the better is obviously i have my daughter and (for my husbands sake, lol) my boobs are bigger. LOL. What guy doesn't like boobs?! But it's CRAZY. I shouldnt feel this way about myself. I eat pretty healthy. I mean, yeah i love a burger from McDonalds but i also love a good salad (drenched in ranch). The ONLY thing that i put in my body on a daily basis that's "bad" is coke. I am a coke addict. SERIOUSLY. If I dont have one by like 8 am, i get a headache and the longer i go without one, the worse i feel. Yes i understand that i could cut out the coke...BUT I DONT WANT TO. LOL. I have come to the realization that it's not really what i am eating..it's that i dont get out and stay active. Yes, i have 3 kids...they keep me pretty busy. But yes, there are days (many days) that i want to plant my butt on the couch and NOT MOVE unless my kiddos NEED something. ALL OF THAT IS TOTALLY BESIDES THE POINT....I AM NOT FAT. I looked up some info about my body type. I will go ahead and put this out there....BECAUSE I DONT CARE IF YOU KNOW. Here are some stats on me:
Age:25
Weight: 140 (today...and it's not the best time of month to weigh myself...if you know what i mean...LOL)
Height: 5'4"
My BMI is within NORMAL range and it said that my weight is at the 48th percentile. THAT MEANS IM SMALLER THAN AVERAGE (not by much but hey- i'll take what i can get) LOL

I am just so frustrated with myself and other people. Yes, i AM bigger now that I was 7 years ago. I've had 3 kids, i've moved 6 times...i've had a lot going on. With my daughter, the Tuesday before I had her (so 2 days before she was born) i got up to 160. My body did NOT react to all the extra estrogen flowing through my body. Ugh, like i said...being pregnant with her totally messed me up.. BUT I AM SO GLAD TO HAVE HER IN MY LIFE. I understand that having 3 healthy children is a blessing.  

Ugh, i am just ranting ON and ON and ON and ON....i'm just upset and rather than whine like a baby to my husband...i thought i'd whine to all of you..LOL. My hubby knows what song to let me listen to and it's really true about me. Skillet: Imperfections. I am constantly looking at my flaws, drowning in my imperfections. I will get better and do better. I just hate feeling the way i feel. 

On a positive note, Carson (will be 4 tomorrow) had a great birthday party today. i cried this morning looking at pictures from when he was 1. hee hee. i'm a mush ball :)